NAM IS OFFICIALLY POOR!

Yes, it is official. It seems for me to get loans for another graduate program, I have to pay off most of my other student loans. So, on December 2, 2000, the great people at the Direct Loans Office will be directly transfering the $95,000 I owe in student loans from undergraduate work at Santa Clara, Summer Research Projects, and My first year of Graduate work at USF in order to pay off all my loans. The funny thing is I don't have all the $95,000 in my money market account so I had to consolidate some stocks at a disgusting loss. It seems that your loan amounts are limited if you are working full time. Hmm. I'm spending my whole life savings to ensure that I can be in debt for years to come. How sad. Darn, I was hoping to defer the loans forever.

One day, my dream of dreams.. is to spend all my money on a degree what will allow me to make less than minimum wage...

Oh, the horror.

Oh well, that's what family and money laundering is for.. right? :)

What will this mean for Nam? Will I have to eat at second rate restaurants now? Do I need to start clipping coupons? Go outlet shopping? Get drunk and drugged up BEFORE heading out to a club? Sell my body on the street? Hmmm... wait it minute... I do all that stuff anyway. Oh well.

The moral of this story is:

If you want to defer your student loans forever,

then make sure that you don't have a job

or any other financial cushions.

11.30.2000 to 12.6.2000

The Calaveras Repertoire Theater present Christmas with the Brothers Grimm. Come see it if you haven't already for the sole fact that I did the lighting design for it. Oh, and the Milpitas Christmas Tree lighting ceremony was a success. Lori was the M.C. and Renee played Mrs. Claus. It was so cute. A fireman dressed as Santa suspended himself down the firefighter training tower in order to light the tree. Ya see, our city hall is under construction so the lighting happened at our cities main firestation. Spare no expense.

Have you been watching the Dune series on the Sci Fi network? Hated it..... I can't believe they had six hours to pay homage to this science fiction phenomenon and they decided to make something that doesn't even compare to the original movie or the novel. Costumes sucked, actors were not cute.. well except for one... but he wasn't as cute as Sting, and the entire story lacked the all important narrator! Well, speaking of other flops, I am quite dissapointed with the American version of Queer is Folk. This too doesn't come close to the calibur of the British Queer as Folk Series. I mean, the story is exactly the same with subtle difference to Americanize it. The thing is that the whole series is shot in Canada! Whats that all aboot? Anyway, like the Dune Series, the characters in the American Series are not lovable and sexy like the British series was AND they have the most annoying introduction music/visual medley I have ever seen. Even gay people get sick of rainbows if you try to push it too much! Hopefully the american series will get better, but the second season of the Brtish version should be coming out on DVD soon.

Oh, I just got digital cable for my house. I don't think I can afford getting one for every room though. That might be pushing it.

Got this picture of my bitches on Misty's Birthday. They had a girls night out....

Nam and Karen had a fabulous lunch today.

I ran out of gas so I decided to go to the local Valero near my work to get gas and then to get a car wash. We love this carwash because it washes under your car as well. The under-carriage wash cycle is actually a lawn sprinkler system that you drive over before you get into the real car wash. It is a novel yet useless idea but very entertaining to see. So, we're waiting in line for our car wash and the car in front of us was about to go in. Karen jokes that she hopes that the people in front of us don't start making out while we were here. We laugh and then suddenly Karen remarks, "Where did the girls head go?" Low and behold, her head was missing. SO, we give each other the obvious look and start laughing. Then, the missing girl's head bobs up out of nowhere and she repositions herself in such a way that her body can be seen swinging across the window and her then disappearing with her head oriented in the traditional blow job position. The guys head then dips back in the traditional manner which signals enjoyment. We had no choice but to call people. Karen called her boyfriend and I called Mr. Cutie Head. It was too funny!

Elicia and Chloe...

Watch them move!

What happened? Good god.. so much crap, that it's not even funny.....

Anywho, to make a long story short.. Karen is now with Kurt on the East Coast.... I've been partying non-stop... and I've spent so much this Christmas that I don't know what I'm gonna do come bill time! (Well, except pay them I guess)

Yes, my friends, the saga that was Nam and Karen's excellent adventure is officially over. Of course, the force that is Karen and Nam can never be truly supressed... it is slightly weakened due to the fact that we are on opposite coasts. Yet fear not, we will find ways to unite and wreak havoc on civilization as we know it. A wise philosopher once said that true friendship has no bounds...the connection and synchronization is so inherent in their beings that one can never be truly be separate from the other. It is this synchronization, fused with our mutual addiction to cleptomania as well as our wonderful ability to judge everyone we see to our unattainable standards, which will keep us together. It is this very cosmic force which is draining power and causing the electricty crisis in the west. Well, that and the fact that I have ten thousand watts of lights decking my home this christmas.. But what are you gonna do... freakin Christ was born for god's sake.. you gotta go flashy vatican style eh!?

So, Eudean and I have gotten this club thing going on.... Well, I've been trying to "get out" more, so I've been doing the Club Asia, Universe, Ntouch, Private Party, Mr. Cutie Head's House circuit. It's quite fun dancing the night away. Unfortunatley, I've hit this weird funk where I am unable to dance if I don't REALLY like the music. It sucks.. maybe I'm getting old.... Andrew the Canadian is 25 and he's practically dead.... I'm not to far behind.... goodness gracious.

Speaking of Mr. Cutie Head! Ok, I guess we've come to a point in our relationship that we're "casual buddies", which I'll learn to live with. So, he invites me to this party at his place. I go and meet his friends which is all cool. Then, I meet one of his old flings.. which is OK.. since we're pretty much just friends. Here's the dealio though. Whenever I come up there and party with him, I expect to be able to sleep over since if I didn't sleep over I would have to drive home from SF to Milpitas at freaking early o'clock in the morning! So, I assume I'm staying over at his place and that we're just gonna have some "fun" that night, and I think he sorta expected it too. Anywho, the party went on.. I party with Mr. Cutie Head's friends and the night oil burns. It's like Four in the morning now and people are leaving. The old Fling asks if he could stay... I'm like whatever..... But, here is the fucked up thing... the old fling helps make the couch into a bed for the night and proceeds to go into Mr. Cutie Heads bedroom and goes to sleep. Mr. Cutie Head attempts to persuade the old fling to go home... since it was only a few blocks away. I'm like.. fuck this.. the old fling already claimed Mr. Cutie Heads Bed, which should have been my spot that night. So, I get my shit together and I leave. Of course, he didn't give much resistance to the fact that I was leaving, half drunk and stoned at Four in the morning on my way to an hour drive back home.

Anywho, I'm already furious since I was supposed to stay over and that Mr. Cutie Head didn't seem to have the guts nor the desire to make a decision of his own on the matter and I'm driving home pretty fucked up. Well I get pulled over by a cop for driving crazy... Fortunately, I knew the cop... and he let me go... hee hee, but I was so tired I fell asleep right there and didn't wake up until about 8 in the morning. That morning I had an appointment to get my wisdom teeth pulled out. I was so pissed and sad because of the night before that I was crying through the whole surgery and my dentist had no idea if I was hurting because of the surgery or if I was just crying because of the happenings of the previous night. ANyway, I go home and I get this message on my voice-mail from Mr. Cutie Head, claiming that he really didn't know what to do that night and he felt it was "awkward"... I'm thinking.... crap... I'm thinking this cause my mouth is full of cotton balls and shit so I couldn't TALK!. Well, we finally talk and resolved a little bit of the problem but not that much. The next weekend he made it up to me by taking me to watch his friend get some dope, taking me to dinner and shopping and then doing our usual thing afterward. I suppose we're still friends now. BUT, here's the deal. I get him this great present for Christmas cause I really care for him and all that crap... and then he did that thing to me that weekend and I called the place I ordered it from to get it canceled and they WOULDN't let me... So, the undeserving bastard not only got an awesome gift, he also got two consolation gifts which I got when I thought I was able to cancel the other one! Oh well.... The moral of the Story.. never fall in love with a Free Spirit, especially if your a free spirit yourself.... Your dreams may never coincide long enough for anything lasting to occur.

I miss Karen

And I'm gonna miss Richard and Elicia when Elicia finally moves down to LA. Well, Rich already is down there.. but it won't be finalized until Elicia goes down too.... Guess I need to tune up the car.. I see a lot of driving in my future.

Oh yeah, Back to Eudean.

So Eudean and I go to NTouch one night. It was OK.. got hit on by the usual rifraff , had a few drinks... It was ok... I didn't like the music.. go figure. So we go to Universe. There were so many hotties that night. It was awesome.. the music was thumpin' and we got our groove on that night. The next weekend we go out again to Club Asia... Andrew was there with his boyfriend (which is now on hold.. long story) and I was in my music funk again.. but it was fun...

We also had our Christmas Get together.. without Rich, Elicia, Matt, Lori or Karen.... since they weren't there we had no choice but to gossip about them all.. But they know we only do it cause we love them... and we're jealous :) We exchanged gifts and told the people at the restaurant to sit us in a nice corner away from the other guests so we wouldn't disturb them.. They didn't believe us at first but Renee made things clear about the situation we were bringing.. that is Loud Old Friends that Just Don't give a damn.....

I also went Bowling a heck of a lot with Kai and Maria.. We went one night and met Maria's friend. We were gonna leave the alley cause the wait was too long but her friend waved her down and said they had an extra lane, so we bowled with them. Maria's friend and the friends friend bowled against us.... three against two. We beat them hee hee. The cool thing is I went to get my haircut at Regis the other day and the Maria's friends's Friend was cutting hair there! I'm like - cool!.... I'll use him next time I need to trim my hedges!

Christmas was Christmas.... Family, Friends.. Sleeping in.. oh the life. I had lunch with Rich and Elicia and we exchanged gifts... Hopefully we'll meet up sometime this week so I can open my gifts.... Elicia already got the mutual gift Karen and I sent her....

Well.. more crap will come when I think of it... Till then.....